the attic archives | ep.60 sleep clinic, filofax updates, christmas. proof of life

Not needing to write a whole book review is relatable. I use a 3 * system, with one star being bad to meh, two is enjoyable, and three is great, would recommend to a friend.

So nice to see some fragments of what you've been up to. The thing you mention about wait after wait with medical stuff made me think how that's another example of an Inbetween or liminal space. I've been experiencing similar things the last few years and it makes me so glad for my books because otherwise I'd have no memory of what I've been doing. Even if it's read a bit, had a walk round the block, napped, I'm glad there's some evidence. I love the teeny A6/A7 rings. I'm similarly making use of my Hobonichi covers, but tucking in random bound books I've collected over the years. Coaltown coffee is 👌

i can so relate to Silo - my husband started watching it when I was doing lunch one day, lunch ended up being 1h later cause I was so invested in the episode! I hope results from the clinic will be quicker than expected and also that they will actually say something 🤞

I once spent ten days in a hospital in which my view the entire time was also a graveyard lol, I found it humorously ironic, particularly given the ward I was on and why I was there, interesting to see that graveyards in view of hospitals is more common than I thought. keep taking care of yourself we're rooting for you too ❤‍🩹

Arcane wrecked me too 🥲 Have a merry Christmas, Megan. 🎄

Ugh, my teen did the head electrode thing, they were finding gum in their hair for weeks after!! Glad it finally happened, and fingers crossed you get useful results ❤

That owl plushie is sooooo cute. 🥺

LOL i do not do well with medical stuff/hospitals so having a graveyard right there would end me lmao

hello, love your videos! What paper are you using to print on?

the graveyard view is hilarious 😂 good to hear from you again, i'm sorry you & your loved ones are going through it ❤‍🩹 hope lighter times are just around the corner & that you get the help you need. ps. i love the look of your dream journal page!

I worked as an EEG technician in a research lab for a year, so seeing those little glimpses of your hospital polysomnography gear was super interesting. Also, as someone who did a lot of electrical brain activity analysis (both during my studies and at my previous workplace) I gotta say - it’s RIDICULOUS that they make you wait 3 months for results. With this little electrodes (you said 8, right?) a basic computer analysis would take a few seconds, and maybe you’d need a few hours for actual interpretation by a trained professional. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I hope you manage to enjoy the festive season despite it all ❤️‍🩹

I've definitely lost this whole year just trying to survive, I'm sorry we're in the same boat.

I hate Christmas time, but I love watching Love Actually only for the sole reason of bill nighy singing and i love the fact that he never actually sits in that goddamn chair behind him. it's the most beautiful thing i have ever seen.

ahhhh such a comfort video alr <3 sending love n light, megan! happy holidays!

I am at uni atm at Cambridge (I hyperfocussed too close to the sun) and I stg watching your videos on repeat is the only thing keeping me going. Thank you for the content and the affirmation. Love it love it love it

Hi from Texas! I’m a new follower and I wanted to say your videos are so soothing to me especially as I study for finals. I really appreciate all the love and effort you put into them despite all the hardships you’re going through. I’m rooting for you!

so glad to see you back!

So sorry to hear you have to wait so long for the results. And I hope you had better luck getting the sticky stuff out of your hair than I did. 😩 Your notebooks are so inspiring. I’m looking forward to using rings next year. I like the idea of being able to add ephemera so easily.

im proud of you <33

I've been feeling extremely anxious today and this video helped me a lot, thanks ♡

That is a good goal,10 books. I always felt pressured to read 50 or 100. I hadn't read in like 15 years, I am almost done reading my 2nd book.

Happy holidays! Excited for future content (:

I hope your sleep study went well! Getting mine changed my life for the better. I don't know what you were going in for but I was testing for narcolepsy. My life was falling apart at the seams but now that I'm diagnosed and medicated, I'm slowly putting things back together and I'm really happy. I hope something like that can happen for you!

I’m sorry to hear that this has been such a tough year for you and your family. I hope that better days are ahead. Your videos are always so interesting and honestly a comfort. Please share your Mac and cheese recipie!

December being weird is like the biggest fu ever because its so festive and happy in my head but every time I get here im like, oh yes The Horrors

so glad to hear from you again megan, and sorry that it's been such a rough time. i'm turning 29 in little over a week and this has been my very first year of existence without a major mental health crisis, which has been super weird, but that's to say i completely get it.

i see and celebrate how hard you're trying, especially with those seemingly small things to encourage that sense of the festive season, even when you're feeling the opposite. it might not feel like it all the time, but you're doing amazing things for your neuroplasticity - little by little, you're helping your brain and nervous system become free from what isn't helpful for you, and expanding into what is.

My own (physical) health is Not It rn, so sorry if this comment is a bit of a mess. But I just wanted to say it was lovely to hear from you again and I hope things improve for you + your family soon. 🍀 And I hope the sleep clinic results will be helpful to you. 🤞 I have been struggling to decide for years if my own sleep issues are just part of the downsides of autism/ADHD or worth seeking help for on their own... Maybe once I get my other "most current" health issue fixed I'll re-evaluate that...

I'm trying really really hard to enjoy my birthday month of December, but December has not been making it easy at all, so I feel you in your struggle for holiday cheer. But we have to keep trying, don't we? Every moment of joy is a victory with the current state of the world, I think...

Anyway, enough about me. I love Oleander, so cute. I now strongly desire a sleepy owl plush.🦉And I'm also obsessed with the lichen on your window sill, lichen is just pretty. 💚The rings in a Hobonichi cover is S tier clever, that's honestly tempting me towards rings quite badly, even though on my last try I didn't get on with rings. The Aura Estelle binder is super chic, congrats on that lovely collab. If you do end up trying out the Hobonichi Weeks; I for one would love to see you "do your thing" in one as a huge fan of that planner. I think your small handwriting would fit it well too.

That was a lot of comment, oh my. 😅TL;DR is I'm happy you're back to making videos and I hope you manage to snatch some holiday spirit out of The Horrors. And that you enjoy the dream journaling! I used to do it very regularly in the past and it can be a lot of fun/a nice way to get something nice out of sleeping when it's A Struggle™. Best wishes from Germany.

this year i feel like i've been in and out of the trenches. january-april i was in the trenches, and then again from september to now. it was a good year in a lot of ways too, but i spent a majority of the year stressed out of my mind and feeling like i was a headless chicken running around. i'm sorry to hear you've been in the trenches too, and i hope next year is kinder to us both. happy holidays megan!
side note: also pleased to hear the inserts are available on patreon and will be on the shop at some point! your inserts give me life

Merry Christmas! Completely off topic from journalling, but your experience of a graveyard outside your hospital window reminded me of this hotel I just visited. There is no graveyard, but this fancy hotel and spa is a former asylum. Some of the doors still have those little hinged doors/opennings at the top (don't know what to call those- peep holes--peep doors?) where guards could look in on "patients". We were allowed to walk around one of the buildings and go to the very top of one to see out the old guard post. The vibe is really unusual, past meets present, historical and beautiful architecture meets kinda spooky.

So happy to see a video from you. I can relate to the struggle of this year, as I feel like I've been through the wringer since the autumn of 2022. I hope you'll be feeling better soon and get some results from the sleep clinic on time, and actually get the help you need. As many has said before, your videos bring a lot of comfort. I have also decided to try a ring system for a change, since it seems super nice, but I have a day-free to fall back on at any time, which feels like a good safety net. I wish you a calm continuation of December and a manageable January.

oough st. anthony! his jaw reliquary is my favorite thing in the world rn it's so cool

thats a very happy puppy 😊

this year was horrid for myself and many people i know. i’ve heard that the number 4 is considered unlucky in some asian cultures. good riddance 2024!

oleander is adorable, and him being your perpetually sleepy pal is just perfect. glad to know you're doing alright 🖤

Vampire book rec: The god of endings by Jacqueline Holland !!

Hi I love your channel & your personality ! 🤗❤️

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The little excited arm flap I did when you mentioned season two of Arcane ugh yes!!!!

This year was also not great for me health wise. I did do my sleep test at the beginning of the year and it was not helpful. I have a lot of sleepiness problems that are now better after stopping my antidepressants, but still lingering. Health journeys are most often frustrating and non-linear. I wish you lots of strengths to go through it :)

Oh gosh I’ve been wanting to get myself a tamagotchi connection and I’ve only just found out there were being re released. Did you get yours from Amazon ? 😊