HARD Topics, WEIRD Dreams & Clearing My Monica's Closet ~ Vlogtober Day 15

I just live for your videos 🫶🏽🥰 luv ya xxx

Just want to tell you Mark that your hair is looking gorgeous at the moment. I’m loving Vlogtober. You are making my cosy October!!

Love you and your beautiful heart!

Mark, can you and Zoe do another ASOS shop for each other? I was watching that old video the other day and was so impressed at the pieces you picked out. You have great taste!

I feel rejection very strongly, so I get you❤
I have avoidant personality disorder and BPD, and one of the most common triggers are rejection.
I'm very anxious around people because off the fear off being rejected, so I'm totally on board with your feelings and thoughts❤
It's really nice to hear it from someone else, that your not the only one with those thoughts. So thank you for that, and thank you for you❤

A last thing if you read this I just want to say that you're an amazing person, I'm always smiling and laughing when I watch your videos, even on the bad days, so thank you for that🥰
Love you Mark❤

The family eating crème eggs 😂😂😂

love that quote where if you experience rejection not to reject yourself! totally going through that rn :(

your morning routine looks so peaceful, i’m jealous 😭💕

Thanks for being vulnerable with us- it’s part of being human and feeling our feelings! Rejection is so hard when all we want is to connect and be accepted. Doesn’t mean you’re worthless, those people, that job, etc just weren’t meant for you. ❤

Random but So excited for when you eventually get a house and decorate it!

i rarely comment but have really felt like i have wanted throughout vlogtober. firstly, i wanted to thank you for promoting your mindset and outlook on life, i don't think you understand completely how many people you are silently helping when you include even a two second clip of you saying something so uplifting and comforting. last year (oct-feb) was the worst year for my mental health and i have been enveloped in apprehension and have been desperately holding onto every small thing that brings me joy and comfort to help aid my mental health and truly vlogtober has been helping me so so much you have no idea; just watching the variety of you dealing with the mundane and also exciting moments and speaking about your personal experiences has been so so motivating and uplifting for me and it has truly made me feel so comforted and i know it's quite a parasocial thing but every time you say a variation of 'im always here for you' genuinely feels like you're speaking directly to each and every one of us and its such a small thing but it really helps remind me that i can and will be ok even if i have to go through it alone again. your kindness, authenticity and genuine nature is (unfortunately) such a rarity and i am beyond thankful you choose to share that with us. you have built such a beautiful connection with the community and i truly hope you know how much you are helping people with just sharing your day and what's on your mind. as someone who has been watching for years, i'm so proud of you and how far you've come and how content you seem with yourself, its so inspiring to those of us who are trying to navigate their early 20s !! love you lots and always wishing you the best and am thoroughly enjoying vlogtober !! <33

your vlogs make me so happy! highlight of the day xx

My husband and I both are constantly like HOW. IS. MARK. SINGLE!!! You are hilarious, good looking, caring… legit the whole package. But someone is literally going to be so happy that it didn’t work out for you with the others, and you will be too. Love you!! 🤍🤍

I got fired in June and been struggling to find a job since, rejection became my absolute nightmare! I’m working my first shifts at the grocery store and I’m still anxious about being fired after every shift — it’s irrational but so real at the same time…

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A quote I like is ‘the people who mind, don’t matter and the people who matter, don’t mind’ 🥰 basically be yourself and the right people will love you anyway

Your amazing ive got a life limiting genetic condtion and lately with all my pain and injury ive got has been causing my anxiety to be high and have had a couple of panic attacks recently out of no where my partner been amazing ive been wanting to say love you to him for ages now but due to my past and being with abusive people i get scared to say love you and be certain way i know he loves me so much tho doesnt help when your an over thinker either i recently opened up to him about im overthinkkng and he was really supportive and just told me to stop. Have the best time mark at tulley my carer went last week she said it was amazing but regection can be so had at times but jts ok sometimes to have it isnt it.💖thanks for making awesome vlogs when i saw post on walkmans ive got one still and jt works gutted had to get rid of my vhs player it was my great aunts but died a couple years ago keep well and safe

Something I've realised I suffer from...I used to get very clingy as I was scared people will leave. Its gotten better as I've got older

Hi Mark, have you researched rejection sensitive dysphoria? It’s part of ADHD but sounds much like what you are going through ❤ x

You have become my comfort you tuber. These vlogs have cheered up these dark mornings . I have SAD and getting up for work has started being a challenge but knowing i have these to watch helps. Ps i have such a slapstick comedy humour and the wizard hat hitting you in the face made me laugh so hard...sorry!

I really feel the same these last days human beings indeed are cabled in a way it's not bearable to feel isolated in a group and memory in life is sometimes tricky but you have enough social kills now, no doubt, to overcome those bad days and move forward

I feel compelled to comment on this video bc it takes a lot of courage to be as vulnerable as you were! Thank you for sharing a side of your life that we don't always see...I often look to your videos and insta for my own source of motivation whenever I'm feeling down. Keep shining your light! <3333

I really needed to hear this personally. You are the best Mark!

Mark. Your one in a million. You are you love you for who you are you don't need ANYONE to live your life and be happy. Those who reject you or turn their backs on you well let's be honest it's their loss because you're awesome and they're missing out on so much.
Relationships are so hard so even after you've kissed thousands of frogs to find your Prince it's not going to be all plain sailing loving someone and living with them is a whole different ball game mate.
AnywY you've read some fantastic inspirational quotes and they all apply.
I've seen Joe's vlog of you all last night as it is now and I was so good and scary at that place I'm thankful I'm on a phone and not there lol
As for you cupboard guy my whole house is like that lol I clear one out and put into another one lol however you insipired me to fold some laundry so thank you.
I know I don't know you personally and just on here but you come across and seem to be a really honest kind and loving guy just believe in you you are amazing and you are worthy just be you because you are ENOUGH.
Take care Mark I'm looking forward to later and your new vlog. X

Mark, I love you so much. You make my October the best)

Vlogtober makes me so happy!! Sending lots of love

Hi mark, fellow October 18 birthday here!! Just wanted to wish you a very happy birthday tomorrow 🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤ I’ll have a drink for you if you have one for me 😊

Jesus would have never resurrected without being betrayed by Judas

Hey Mark, I normally never comment on videos but wanted to talk about Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) which is when you experience severe emotional pain because of a failure or feeling rejected. It might be that. ❤ I think it's worth doing some more reading.

Love you loads ❤

I just had to reach out after hearing you talk about feeling sensitive to rejection. I know you’ve often spoken about your brain working in a unique way, and I wasn’t sure if you thought potentially you might have some ADHD like tendencies? (Not me trying to diagnose btw) But as a proud ADHD girlie 👑 I’ve learned about something called Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria - it’s worth a Google! But many ADHD’ers or highly sensitive people experience this, and it’s such a tough thing to experience as it can be almost physically painful. Sending love ❤ you’re doing amazing sweetie xo

This was such a comforting video and came at the perfect time for me, thank you Mark ❤️

Whoever rejects you is another way the universe weeding out the losers, the wrong path. It’s actually a blessing. It is hard to think about it at the time, but you are strong enough to not let it get You down. Look forward to the future because you have an amazing event coming up and that was just a bump in the road. You are an amazing, real, smart, lovely man who is just heading towards success down the road❤❤ YOU HAVE THIS SWEETHEART!!😊

Bless you mark you are truly a genuine soul I so feel for you as a fellow libra like you I also feel so deeply love so deeply and we just want our scales balanced and life just isn't sometimes and that's why we find it so hard.

I cleaned up my living room after my depressive episode thanks to you <3

crying listening to you talk in the beginning ❤

Love the dream inclusion 😂

Was that Hyde Park? So pretty

Thank you so much for speaking about rejection mark. It's been such a theme in my life and every time I'm triggered it by it, it immediately makes me cry uncontrollably and i don't know why. So i relate so much ❤

is that tiny little fridge the only fridge you have?😮

Morning you is the absolute cutest! Idk what it is but the sleepiness and maybe hair not styled?? So precious ❣️

Loving all of these vlogs 💕

Rejection is their stuff not yours 😚

Love a London cheesecake, i get mine from Aldi

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences on anxiety and rejection. This is something that sits really deeply with me too, and hearing your vulnerabilities around the same thing was really refreshing and comforting. ❤❤❤

I have adhd and noticed you mentioned a book linked with it the other day. But there is a symptom with it called rejection sensitivity disorder (RSD). Where people with adhd feel rejection so deeply as the brain processes it as physical pain. I used to have it so bad where people even just kindly correcting me on things felt really hard to hear. Just thought it was worth a mention and it really helped me understanding it 🩷

“Washing deterrent” when cleaning the cupboard out really cracked me 🤣🤣🩷🩷

It's because you have worked so hard on it that it feels bigger. It won't last forever.

When mark was talking about his dream it made me think of something. I’d love if videos of people talking about there dreams got put on tiktok but never said it was a dream, so it basically sounds like there just telling a story and then you realise it was a dresm

There’s so many little funny moments in this video, can’t remember half of them but I found it funny how seriously he said that the family were eating crème eggs in his dream, and when he said “if I’m ever considered being a conductor”